Bella was dying. Forks was literally her own personal hell. She had no idea what she had done to deserve any of this, but it must have been something really, really bad. All she had wanted was to be ignored, to be invisible. That was something so easily accomplished in Phoenix, but apparently not in Forks, apparently not for her. Why? What have I done to deserve this kind of cruel punishment? She thought desperately to herself.

Her dream of going unnoticed had burst into flames the second she had stepped out of her truck. All of the people in the immediate surrounding areas had turned to stare at her, and conversation stopped. Just brilliant. Of course, being Bella, she had blushed and awkwardly shuffled her way into school, trying in vain to ignore the awful stares of her classmates. She just hoped that it would be easier for Evelyn.

All day, Bella had tried to go ignored, but it seemed to be impossible. People kept coming up to her to talk, and others just openly stared at her, not even bothering to hide it. It meant that she was being clumsier than usual, and Bella had already lost count of how many times she had nearly tripped, only to be saved by one of her many "new friends". These friends turned out to be guys who she shared at least one class with, and for some unknown reason insisted on following her around.

There had, however, been one positive moment to her day. Before one of her lessons, she had been lost, and met an angel. She knew he couldn't really have been an angel, but he was glorious enough to have been one. He had helped her find her way to class, but Bella would have been an idiot to hope for something to happen between them. He probably didn't remember her face. And the way she had stared, and been unable to form a single, coherent, sentence around him had probably lead to him questioning her mental competence.

Lunch time could not come fast enough for Bella. She would see Evelyn, the only person she actually knew, unless her friend had cancelled. A sudden shiver of fear ran through her, What if she isn't in the cafeteria? Maybe she forgot, or was never even planning to have lunch with me? Bella agonized the whole way to the cafeteria. She tried to concentrate more on her feet and not falling over in front of everyone, and eventually she arrived.

Breathing a soft sigh of relief, Bella looked up to see a familiar-looking person, and smiled. "Evelyn! I'm so glad you're here, I'm dying." She told her friend with a slight grimace. They walked to the lunch line to get food, and Bella avoided the looks of her "admirers" who hadn't left her alone for a full 5 minutes yet. She looked up at Evelyn, "How's your morning been?" She asked tentatively, hoping it had been at least fractionally better than Bellas.

Bella listened to Evelyn's description of her morning with sympathy. It seemed like neither of them had had the ideal day so far, and it didn't feel much like it would change. She was pretty sure it was just because they were new, so they were like some novelty, but she hated it. Not disliked, hated. Normally, Bella wasn't a violent or aggressive person, and she was fairly neutral about most things, but when it came to being the center of attention, her insides curled up in fear and she got nervous and stressed and worried.

As her friend asked about her morning, Bella surpressed a groan. Her morning couldn't have been worse. Except for one thing, but that was completely different. All morning she had been plagued with questions and opinions, and followed around and watched. She was about to go insane, or die from embarassement, whichever came first. Looking over at Eve with a sad smile, she shrugged half-heartedly. What to say? She decided to tell her friend half the truth, there was really no point in complaining or making her friend worry.

"Urm, my morning was.. horrible. Everyone keeps looking at me, and talking to me. All I really want to do is disappear.. And then.." She carried on, before stopping abruptly. She didn't know whether or not to tell Evelyn about the encounter she had had this morning. Bells decided eventually not to, yet anyway. She turned swiftly, grabbing a water bottle to plunk on her tray as they moved along in the queue. "I just hope I don't draw any attention to myself this afternoon, I don't think I could take much more." She said softly.

No need to mention that there was one person she had met whose attention she wouldn't mind getting, but that also happened to be the one person who probably wouldn't even realize she existed by tomorrow. Just my luck.. I can never win, she thought bitterly, before pushing the negative thoughts out of her mind. It was time to be positive. She was away from all the other kids, with her friend, and already half way through the day. And she hadn't fallen yet, which was some kind of crazy miracle.

Laughing at Evelyn's words, Bella nodded. "I'm so glad too. I can't imagine what I'd have done if I didn't know you. This is probably all that got me through the morning. And it's saved me from eating with some of the other people in my classes.." She muttered the last part, rolling her brown eyes in exasperation. They were annoying, and she had no clue why they wouldn't leave her alone. In her opinion, she really wasn't that interesting. But they were so insistent. "Anything good happen to you yet?" She asked tentatively, looking back over at Evelyn.

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Evelyn couldn’t help but grimace sadly once as she listened at Bella’s answer. Sure, she knew that probably Bella’s morning hadn’t been the greatest that was for sure, but she still did truthfully hoped she simply was wrong about it, that her friend hadn’t had simply such a bad morning as herself, of course it was just an pointless hope. Of course, she still could try to cheer up her friend and tell her that no, she hadn’t probably drawn that much of attention toward her, but if she would even allow herself to say that, she would be lying… something she wasn’t definitely comfortable with it. Well, she could at least cease some of Bella’s concern’s, couldn’t she? That wouldn’t mean to be lying, at least not necessarily.

“I’m so sorry Bella, I swear I would gladly take everything of this instead of you even though that would be horrible, but I suppose with two newcomers their attention would eventually be rather equally repartee for both. “Evelyn started, sighing sadly. “But I’m sure they would leave you alone quickly… It’s just the fact you are new and… Well, eventually they would just forget it and start acting normally. That always happens with me when I move.” She added rather dismissively and breathed deeply briefly. And she did really know how was the feeling of moving taking in consideration the really huge amount of times she had already done that on her life… But there was no point of letting Bella concerned about that.

However, there was something in the way she had spoke so vaguely between that had awoke Evelyn’s curiosity briefly something she was almost completely sure her friend hadn’t noticed it. Really quickly and wit ha perfection many would envy, Evelyn had disguised her curiosity with a neutral expression, pull in order her thoughts and spoke not daring herself to say anything that could recognize Bella’s hesitation and trying to not be over curious about it. It was a very difficult task, though, taking in consideration her natural over curios personality, but still she had managed it even thought she couldn’t still help but wonder about the subject. It’s not your business, Evelyn Mae… If Bella isn’t comfortable with it, then you just need to leave it. If she wants to tell you she will, naturally and eventually. She told herself, hoping this way she could still pull away those thoughts.

And it worked, gladly, thought it surely had helped that as a source of distraction she had heard another student placing himself… or herself, she couldn’t tell since she knew it would be rather noisy and impolite to look back, but she still was rather glad for the small distraction. Bella’s small laugher also helped her, and with no effort Eve felt on small and truthful bright smile lighten her face softly. It was good to know she too liked Eve’s company on the lunch, overwhelming and sweet… Something the blond girl found nice. That was what she got to never, once before, had allowed anyone to get closer to her like it had happened with Bella. A really good and truthful friend, that was what she was more than ever started to see Bella, even thought she knew that having friends did have it’s risks…

You think too much. One little voice told inside her head and Evelyn couldn’t help but feel rather guilty on that subject. It surely was true, sometimes… She really did think too much, but it wasn’t precisely her fault. She had just grown up to be that way and there was anything she could to about it. Those were the circumstances of her existence and there was no point in trying to defy them, it never was.

"Anything good happen to you yet?” Bella’s voice popped out suddenly and she found herself being dragged away from her thoughts. That was another good thing she would have to had on Bella’s strengths: the ability of helping Evelyn to stop thinking. God knew how sometimes she would just start over thinking too much. Yeah, I’m lucky no one can read thoughts… If so my would definitely resemble the one’s of a mental and very insane person. She added for herself lastly and pulled her whole concentration in a good answer for her friend.

“Well… Not really. Unless you consider the fact of having the whole morning been assigned with male partners a good thing… I surely disagree with that though.” Evelyn started, chuckling but added the last part rather seriously. “It gets a little exasperating and annoying having them acting weirdly like if they’re trying to chat you up. But nothing you should concern seriously, I can handle it.” She continued quickly, trying to ignore the light blush she knew was starting now to touché her checks very lightly. “I was hoping your morning was more eventful than mine. Have you met anyone interesting by any chance?” Eve finished, perhaps a little too quickly, hoping that would make the attention of her previous statement vanish quickly.



Muse: Coming back.. so slowly xD
Tagged: Bella, Edward
Word count: 844 words
Notes: With Arms Wide Open

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Since a very little child, Evelyn had learnt that sometimes smiling and lying was the best way to keep other people happy about some subjects, but even thought smiling as one of her really good strengths, the lying part simply wasn’t. If she would have to pick between a rock and herself the best liar, the rock would definitely be the winner, so since very young the blond half-vampire had learnt how to avoid such complicated situations. However, these kind of situations seemed to have a particular and strange way to follow her everywhere, even for the rainy and small town of Forks making her be unsure again between what was correct or what was kind… honesty and hope. Telling Bella that it would probably take weeks until they would stop following her… or cheering her up and give probably really untrue expectations.

“Err…it depends. One week or two, I suppose” Or one month or two… She added for herself trying to restrain her pained look. It was ridiculous, Bella wouldn’t probably buy her vague answer at all but still she really needed to try, right? I couldn’t say a lie even if my life depended of it. Eve muttered inside again, complaining with herself. There were things that simply weren’t meant to change like… never.

Deciding to put away her inner discuss of her lying skills (if they even existed, anyway), Evelyn made one effort to keep moving slowly as the food line would keep moving and take attention as well on her friends words. Between allowing herself to look at grilled liver –Ewww- It wasn’t really that difficult, taking in consideration the particularly charming daily main menu of the cafeteria on that day and her sudden urge to move her thoughts for the food she was supposed to eat in a couple of minutes. So, naturally, it wasn’t really difficult at all to shift her attention toward Bella and keep studying her face silently, especially once she heard her friends next words.

Bella was talking about a boy. Perhaps that wasn’t that strange, coming from another girl, but that coming from Bella was definitely surprising since, surely, Eve hadn’t ever pictured her friend as that kind of girl that would start rambling and daydreaming about any ordinary boy. If she really wanted to be honest with herself, she was 99,9% sure Bella wasn’t that type, yet here she was starting to talk about a supposed perfect boy that had helped her on her way to her daily classes… and instinctively Evelyn couldn’t help but suppress the mild, warm and very soft smile spreading across her lips at the sight of a very nervous and almost ready to blush any second soon Bella. That was starting to sound more like the Bella she had pictured on her mind the day before, but on that moment the blond girl couldn’t focus herself beside the fact that her first friend ever had told her something she knew that was secret, trusting on Evelyn a piece of her soul, and the way it felt was really complex. Good and normal, but complex.

“I’m glad you at least had made a fairly much better acquaintance than me.” Eve couldn’t help but start, cheerfully but then her face became serious. “And how could you say such a thing about you? That is a very silly thing, believe me. You cannot say, never, that one person cannot be meant for you… future and fate are the most unpredictable things on the world and no one can defy them.” She continued softly and paused, sighting. Bella or anyone couldn’t ever know how true she was… And perhaps it simply was good that way. “Perhaps he won’t remember you… or, perhaps, it could happen the opposite, No one can tell. I just assure you that and if he is the one to never remember about you… honestly, it’s is him who looses! “She added lastly, smiling softly once again.

Pausing, Evelyn pondered how ridiculous she must have appeared to anyone outside and took a look at herself. Raised up and with her blond hair falling on her shoulders, she strangely resembled one weird combination of chicken politician mixed with her grandmother while she was lecturing her… and Evelyn couldn’t help but chuckle lightly at herself and regretted almost immediately her lack of attention as she felt her body loosing quickly balance and she ended shocking lightly against the boy behind her making Eve turn around almost instinctively and face him to apologize quickly… but her words were lost in the middle of somewhere once she landed her light blue eyes in a very attractive boy, leaving her briefly on a dazzle state of mind. He was stunning… possibly; even more stunning than herself and that was say something. Not that she did min that, not at all, but definitely finding someone so naturally beautiful and more than her was…well, that hadn’t ever happen. I start to see the point about what grand had said about fit in here… She mumbled for herself still dazzled… until for her own good she forced herself to focus herself and settle again the apologizing words.

“Err…. I’m sorry. It was an accident. “Evelyn managed to say quickly and truthfully, proud with herself that she had managed to get away from her strange dazzle in just seconds, and smiled briefly before turning again toward her friend and continue on their chat though with the boy still on that back of her head. Nice, but definitely not my type. She concluded for herself and couldn’t help but find it strangely true. But, again, it was really difficult she would ever find her ideal anyway… It would take more than one lifetime… “Sorry Bella… Where were we?” She apologized grimacing softly. They were talking about a supposed perfect boy , that was it! “Like I said, if this guy or any other ever tells you are uninteresting, that simply means you deserve much better.” Eve added lastly, taking a closer look to see her friend’s reaction at her words. Little did she know the boy behind her was the boy her friend had just started to talk about…



Muse: Back? =)
Tagged: Bella, Edward
Word count: 1034 words
Notes: This was weird.. Accidental the size. oO You can go next Jake =P

Bella barely registered what her friend had been saying, as she noticed the person Evelyn had accidentaly bumped into. She wasn't sure whether to be ecstatic, depressed or confused. So it was clear now that she hadn't made him up, unless she was suffering from some kind of recurring delusion, which was unlikely, even for her. So he was real? But it didn't mean that he remembered her, or even had an idea of who she was. Why is he so perfect? She asked herself, more than a little bit disappointed. Her memory hadn't exagerated anything, if anything, it hadn't done him justice. Why couldn't he just be less perfect than everyone else here, and why did she have to feel so insignificant around him.

But when he spoke, first to her, she felt a deep blush rise up to her cheeks and her heart skip a beat. It was starting to do that quite often around him. It couldn't possibly be healthy. But none of that mattered to Bella at the moment. He remembered her. That was all that she registered, as she just stared at him. His next words only deepened her blush, and she muttered "Hi..", realizing she had been staring for quite a while. She fumbled around with the food, anything to avoid staring at him any longer. There was no way he could think she was mentally stable. And soon even Evelyn would notice it. Brilliant. She thought, annoyed. Why couldn't she just treat him the same as everyone else?

She shook her head softly, thinking that neither of the two would see. Him? Not good enough for her? Crazy. And it was the other way around anyway. He could have absolutely anyone in the world, while she.. ye. Once her cheeks returned to their usual pale color, she looked back up slowly, wondering what Evelyn and Edward were doing. It suddenly dawned on her how ridiculous she probably looked to everyone else. Standing awkwardly next to two impossibly gorgeous people, doing nothing. She quickly moved on in the queue, eager to avoid causing a traffic jam and getting even more attention. This just wasn't her day.

Back home in Phoenix, she had imagined Forks to be dull, gray and full of average people. She'd only been right about the dull and gray. Nobody here looked average to her, from the people she had met anyway. Sure, there were the people in the hallways, the classes, but otherwise. People like Evelyn, and Edward. They were far from average. Humans weren't allowed to be that attractive, it wasn't fair. Of course, Bella didn't want to look like either of them, not because they weren't stunning because they were, but because the amount of attention people like that were given was insane. And she couldn't deal with that.